Nobody loves me.

*sniffles*

*insert pitiful, pouty look here*

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...

Muwhahahahahhaha! Oh I know you all love me! I was referring to my Sockapal-2-za pal. What the heck is going on? Not only did I get ditched by my first sock pal (never heard from him/her) but I had the same thing happen with my second sock pal! Come on folks... I'm a nice person.

Most of the time.

Especially if you bring chocolate. ;)

So yeah, I know I'm complaining but dang it! I was looking forward to some socks from a sock pal! But I think that's what makes my Knittyboard SP so much kewler! Lookie what she sent me in my last box:



Some Noro yarn.... (I love you!) Some art cards. (I love them and Eric mentioned getting them framed for me.) A note book which will be my new address book. (Thanks I needed one!) An entrelac scarf pattern. (Nifty!) Some pins in a tin. (How kewl is that?) And a mix CD she made for me. (Woot!) Okies. She left me some clues too as to who she is. *ponderponder* I will have to do some research and try to figure it out. She's been such a great SP that she totally made up for not getting any socks. :)

Thank you SP!

In response to comments:

Zib said: From this angle your scarf sorta looks like the beginnings of a very long willie.

Oh good, someone else thinks that too! Yay!

Ragan said: Happy Turkey Day! Finished those dafodil socks from the yarn you gave me! Love that yarn! Added more projects to my 'to do' list.

Holy crap I've created a sock knitting, monster. Go woman go! :)

Minor knitting progress

Well the nice thing about being home sick is that you get more time to knit. The problem with being home sick is that you sometimes have no urge to have that much heavy fabric on your body when you are already overheating. Blaaaaaaah.

So once I woke up I got to working more on the scarf:



It looks like absolute ass right now because it's not blocked but I do like the way it uses the short rows to make the triangles. This will be great when it's all done and blocked. I'm making it out of Plymouth Indiecita Alpaca in color 500. I love this yarn!

I picked up the afghan for a bit too:



Here's another close up of the stitch:



In response to comments:

I won't pick out each particular comment as I'm really, really tired but I wanted to say thank you to all of you for your support. It really helped me a lot.

Okies well back to the futon and the covers for a bit.

Let the purging begin.

I've been a bad blogger... neglecting my readers. But I have a good excuse. I have a friend of mine that is no longer my friend. By his choice. Let me tell you how and why...

As some of you may know, Eric and I have known a guy named Nik. We've known him for about five years now and about every four to six months during those five years, he has decided he is either angry at or offended by myself or Eric, or both. For about a week or two, he pouts and ignores us and then out of the blue, we get a text message, an instant message or a call, asking for forgiveness, saying sorry or what have you and then all is well with him and us. Mind you... through all of this, we agonize because we do both care for him rather deeply. And every few months it seems, he needs to be reminded of this.

The most recent flip out of his occurred this past Thursday. I was at work and he and Eric were chatting via instant messenger. Suddenly, I get a message from Nik that says something along the lines of:

"Since it hurts me too much emotionally and physically to be friends with Eric, then I am no longer friends with you either."

It was about three lines longer than that, but that's the gist of it. So, as I have done many times before, I tried to get to the heart of what was upsetting him this time. After an hour and a half of back and forth messaging, he tells me it is because Eric doesn't tell him that he is friends with Nik. Because Eric hasn't said "Nik you are my friend" to him recently.

*blink*

I asked him something along the lines of what about all the hugs Eric gives you? Or the gifts? Or the conversations he has with you? Nope, none of these count because Eric doesn't call him and Eric isn't friends with him on "his terms". (Direct quote.)

*blink*

Nik told me that he has not doubt that Eric and I love him but it's too hard for him to be friends with us because we don't express our friendship directly to him, enough.

*blink*

So changing the way we cooked dinner once a week for an entire year to accommodate his wanting to be a vegetarian isn't caring? Never, ever lying to him when others would just to save his feelings isn't caring? Hugs and gifts isn't caring? Laughter and sharing of stories isn't caring? His reply was it wasn't enough and he would like all his stuff he loaned us back.

*blink*

Okay.

*blink*

I tell you, he could have punched me in the stomach and it wouldn't have hurt as much. So I decided, I don't care anymore. I am tired of feeling like this with him every few months. Don't I as a friend, deserve better than that? I think I do. But this has put me in a bit of another dilemma because I was knitting him some gloves for Chrismahanakwanzakayule and now, to look at that yarn just causes pain and sadness now. So I've put the yarn away. It will wait until it tells me what it wants to be and then and only then will I knit anything with it. It's in a dark bag, at the bottom of one of my yarn bins where it will sit until it calls to me.

*sigh*

It was hard to do anything this weekend. It's preoccupied my mind most of the time. But after consulting some folks on the Who Wouldn't Love a Hand Knitted Gift? knit-along, I decided to just purge myself of these negative feelings. I'll tell you it wasn't easy! I've split up with people I have had sex with easier than this!

*laugh*

So on Saturday, I saw him at a mutual friend of our's house and I gave him all his stuff back. He acted like nothing had happened. I couldn't wait to get out of there. It hurt me way too much to be there.

Goodbye Nik. Good luck.

Wow I feel better. So after finally coming to that decision, I decided to finish my Clapotis and block it. :)

Here it is finished:



Here it is blocking:



Gotta love those dropped stitches:



And now it's good to go! :) I'll wear it to work tomorrow. I hope it's cold enough to wear it... :P And yes Ragan, those are Eric's old sheets from when he was a boy. :)

The afghan is coming along. I've plotted the chart for the Harley Davidson hat for my Father in Law (thanks for the idea with that one too Ragan!) and I've decided to shadow knit a scarf for his wife that has Rusty Wallace's "2" in it. She's a huge fan of Nascar and Rusty.

I'll post pics of all the other progress tomorrow. Pinky swear! :) I've got knitting to get to.

Blogger is teh suck some days

Yes, yes. I know. I should always copy my post before I attempt to publish it. You'd think I would have learned this by now.

Apparently not.

And yes, yes, I know I shouldn't complain about a free service but dammit! There I was... crafting this lovely post to my Blogger account when Blogger decided to go out of it's damn mind! After reposting everything and then having Blogger go bonkers on me again, I have decided to say screw it and post some quick pics.

Here's the afghan I'm working on:



and a close up:



And the scarf I started on:



And a pic of the kitties:



Now pardon me while I go back to the futon and knit while I mutter unspeakable things about Blogger and the server it rode in on.

Whole lot a knittin' going on!

Oh yeah! I went to see my cousin Ragan this past weekend. It was so great to see her! Go take a look at her blog and check out her socks. So nifty! She only started knitting a few months ago and those are some pretty groovy socks. :)

While I was there, we went to the local yarn store in New Bern called Weaver's Web. Nice place!



In the pictures, the woman standing to the left is our Aunt Donna. Ragan is holding her son Brandon and the other boy is her son Ryan. Both very cute! :)

While I was there, I got me some serious knitting done. I finished my socks. :)



And I very nearly finished my Clapotis...



But I frigging ran out of yarn! *whaaaaaaaa!* I can -not- believe that I ran out. I was -positive- that I had another skein here somewhere! I have torn this house apart and haven't found it. *grumble, bitch, moan, grumble*

Damn.

*scratch forehead in thought*

Damn.

So I guess I'll have to order some more. Actually that's not such a bad thing. I have been wanting some more Knitpicks yarn... yeah. See, I must have subconsciously caused the yarn shortage so I would order more thus furthering my knitting. My subconscious is my enabler! ;)

On to other knitting news: The decisions were made for who won the Hats with Heart Contest and it wasn't me. But I did get free cake! :)

Moving on to some more knitting news: I've pretty much gotten my list of what I'm making for who this year and even picked patterns and yarn. Wow, I've got a lot of stuff to knit!

When I got home today, my girls were waiting to greet me as usual.



They are so cute. They are always like this when I come home. They must be able to hear my car pulling in the driveway. It's a nice sight to see when Eric isn't home. Makes it a bit easier. I'm missing him a bit today. Not sure why. He left for work this morning and he'll be home tomorrow. It's probably because I -finally- picked out what scarf pattern I am going to use for him. Once again, he specifically requested a scarf. I got some gorgeous alpaca a few months ago that will be perfect! I'm going to go cast on right now!